No, I don't mean to Michael Jackson's Neverland Ranch! I mean, Peter Pan's Neverland. It's been a long while since I last blogged, and believe it or not- a lot has happened.
I don't want to bore you with the details so I'll just do some quick highlights of my life for the past 5 months.
In December, I graduated from the big leagues (college.. I meant college). I actually did it! Finished my last two classes and got my diploma in the mail. Honestly though..it didn't feel like anything special. I didn't feel any wave of accomplishment or success- it kind of feels like a big gapping black hole of now what? Everything has always been planned.. preschool-kindergarten-elementary school-middle school-high school-college, now I'm left with no plan!
After the holidays went by, I started to consider what to do. Should I find a full time job? Should I travel? Should I make up some bullshit and say "I'm taking a year off" when really, I'm just buying some more time to decide? But then, an opportunity came up.
Let me say this, I have a very loving family. Like a very loving family. A loving family who offered to take me to China and Japan with them for an entire month. WHO CAN SAY NO TO THAT? Initially, I told them no (what a fool I was) because I didn't have enough money to go. I spent it on my solo trip to Italy and I'm not the type of person who takes money from people even from family. I like to earn my own money and do things on my own. There's seriously nothing greater than earning your own money from hard work. However with some convincing, it was too good of an opportunity to give up. I made sure I thanked them and used my own money for spending on food, souvenirs and paid my share for our trip to Japan. And so, I spent all of March in Asia. (I'll do another post about it later!)
Fast forward to the present. Now, here I am again like I was back in December, what should I do with my life? I kind of feel like I'm in Neverland. Obviously without all the fairies, mermaids and pirates and whatnots, but I'm kind of like in an alternate version. Like Pan, I don't want to grow up. Right now, I am a Lost Girl in Neverland. Life's not a fairytale.. and I know there's responsibility to take, growing up to do- adulting. But for now, I'm in a Neverland state of mind.
There's a really great quote from the 2003s movie version of Peter Pan where Peter says, "To live would be an awfully big adventure." I've always liked this quote. The words have never seem to leave my mind. I'm pretty scared of the adventures that lie ahead.. but I'm hoping I'll eventually fly out of Neverland and find my place with the Darlings.
Signing off for now,
Lost Girl
