Why it's OKAY to be single

It's no secret that I'm totally terrible at relationships. I'm heavily guarded and my walls are built so high, I don't think it's even possible to helicop over it. I don't know how I got this way! I guess it begins with every boyfriend I ever had. To tell you the truth I didn't get any like-like feelings for them. Is that a terrible thing to say? I mean I liked them.. but not "like like" them. I always felt super suffocated and I just couldn't do it. It wasn't fair to them and it wasn't fair to me. 

I think it's absolutely ridiculous to be with someone who you think will become something if the spark wasn't there to begin with. I kind of learned that the hard way. 

It's not that I don't believe in love or whatever. It's just that I never really found anyone who's held my attention. I don't know how people do it! It's so hard to actually like-like a person. 

SO. Being that's it's Valentine's day and all. I just wanna say that IT'S OKAY TO BE SINGLE. If you're like me, being alone and single is not a bad thing. You don't need to be dependent on another person. It's okay to do things on your own. I go to the movies alone. Ain't not thang! You don't have to save a seat, you can sit anywhere you want, and see any movie! 

On this weird day, I'm telling you that it'll be okay. 

If you're like me, this day will not faze you because-

1. You're already awesome. 

2. You're not tied down to anything

3. You're saving money by not buying gifts 

4. Take out food is f-king delicious and you have it ALL to yourself. 

5. Dressing up and wearing a bra is too much work

At this age, I feel like I'm exploding in all different directions. I am a human octopus. I'm trying really hard to figure out my life and I think being single is actually helping me. I don't think it's selfish to think about myself right now. Those of you feeling that way, YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE. I am with you. It's a tough time to be a 20-something trying to figure it out. So, don't worry so much about being with someone today.

Being alone doesn't mean sadness. Remember that. 

I know I kind of rambled on and I have no idea if anything I wrote makes sense but, oh well! :) 

Until next time 

x